The Most Amazing Girl

Will I ever be happy again?  I loved her and I lost her.  She was so cold.  But as I ran my fingers through her hair a final time, tears streamed down my face.  I said I would remember all the good times we'd had.  I promised myself I wouldn't cry.

No matter how hard it gets, I will live on with my memory of how things used to be.  Life is still worth clinging to.  Life is still worth living.

She just seems weak and tired around me now.  I miss seeing her bright, beautiful smile.  The days get harder as she starts to slip away.

How could it be her fault?  I try to tell her that it's not her fault.  Now, I think she just feels guilty.  She used to love spending time with me.  She used to be full of life and joy.  She used to be so hopeful, so long ago.

Sometimes, I still get to see her smile.  Her smile makes it all worth it.

It's worth loving someone with your whole heart, even when you aren't sure how long they'll be around.  I told her I would always be there for her, for as long as she would have me.  She finally told me what was wrong.  She cried in my arms tonight.

She should know how I feel, that I really care about her and what's happening.  I've asked her what's wrong, but she seems afraid to talk about it.  She's seemed distant recently, like she's not entirely there.  I think it's good I didn't admit too much.

So I'll just enjoy this for what it is:  an amazing adventure with the most amazing girl in the world.  I'd hate to admit to something that she couldn't return to me.  I know she feels something for me, but I don't know if it's the same as I'm feeling.  Love is such an easy thing to feel and such a hard thing to admit to feeling.

She makes me a better person.  She's so full of life and energy and joy.  We treasure, but we also just have a lot of fun.  We treasure our moments together.  Even as time passes, it is still ridiculous how happy I feel around her.

This ridiculousness is a good thing, a wonderful thing.  Others might make fun, but my feelings for her bring out the ridiculous.  I don't know how else to describe it.  It was like a waterfall crashing down into an oasis at the end of a rainbow.  We had our first kiss today.  It finally happened.

I'm not usually a shy person, but Lisa really messes with my head.  How can I tell her how I feel?

I'm just enjoying what we have.  Labels seem too simplistic for Lisa.  We've done stuff with groups, but also with just the two of us.  I don't know if we're dating or what.  She agreed to hang out, but nothing was really well defined.

I know it's clique, but I think it's true.  I think I might be falling in love.  She's coy and flirty.   She's just as amazing over the phone as in person.  Her name is Lisa.

I'll probably call her tomorrow.  By some miracle, I actually managed to get her phone number.  It was an ordinary party until I noticed her.  We met at a party.  Though her eyes did seem to sparkle when we talked.  But I'm not sure she really noticed me.  Her smile said it all.  Yet she went so much deeper than those surface attributes.  She was everything I ever imagined:  smart, funny, beautiful.  I met the most amazing girl today.